Drama...again

I looked up seeing Brax and backed up subconsciously. Dammit. I was trying to get away from people. I gulped seeing Damon. Oh gods this was not going to end well. The girl’s words stung and at the moment I didn’t have it in me to try to bring emotion to my eyes. I hadn’t gotten this bad in months and now I probably resembled a caged wild animal. I sighed as my head drooped forward. “ I know I’m not pretty like you.” I stated bluntly, my face free of emotion, my eyes dead.

I physically cringed while she spoke. It's like she just listed everything that was wrong with me and made it into a blade that cut at my heart. "I also know that but I'm not worth it." I responded darkly. I sighed and glanced over to Damon. I really wasn't sure what to expect from him at this point. Should I expect anything from him at all? I zoned out as was usual at this stage. I snapped back into reality after hearing some yelling and a sickening crunch. I looked up only to see Brax punching Damon, and in response I let out a startled gasp.
I rushed forward and grabbed Brax's free hand, pulling him back in the process. I'd spent enough years fighting to know to avoid a fight you needed to sepperate the hotheads.

I sighed and looked away. " This is one of my bad days Damon. The worst one I've had in months, probably years." I whispered , frowning slightly. I couldn't look him in the eye like this. He didn't deserve to see them so ...lifeless. " I'm not mad Damon I just...I don't know whats going on with me anymore."I whispered, a small tear making its way along my cheek.

I looked at him in disbelief. I placed a hand on his cheek and frowned slightly, more tears trailing down my cheeks. “Damon love it’s not your fault. It’s never been your fault. I’m just an emotional mess inside.” I said, trying hard to keep my voice from cracking. I bit my lip and took in a deep breath. “B-but if it’s what you really want…Go ahead.” I whispered, looking down while fighting back tears. He was the one thing I had wanted, my selfish wish. I knew I couldn’t bear to lose him but I won’t hold him back from anything.

I looked up at him, my eyes wide. " I'm not hurting because of you... In all truth you're my one selfish wish. I know I don't deserve anything and that I shouldn't want anything but I just can't stop myself from wanting you." I said, more tears falling.I lowered my head and closed my eyes. I took in a deep breath. I didn't want to start bawling in front of him like some little kid.

I smiled and looked up at him.I laughed as more tears fell. Most likely tears of relief." You're looking at the worlds biggest emotional mess." I mumbled, resting my head on his shoulder.

I blushed slightly and looked up at him through my eyelashes. I shrugged. " Its...winter." I stated simply. I didn't really know how to explain it better. Every winter it got real bad. Same for my mom.

I bit my lip."Well it's not really winter itself it's just...It's the end of the month and I'm always loopy in cold whether and...It's complicated." I said, then burrying my face in his chest. I was simply terrible at explaining.

I sighed and kissed his neck tenderly. " I don't really know. You haven't been around long enough to see me in a really REALLy bad mood." I said, a smile playing across my lips. Looking at my violent bad days in an objective point of view made me realize I was halarious when I was mad. But it was a cruel kind of humor but still pretty damn funny.

I chuckled and smiled up at him. He always made me feel better somehow. It was strange in a way but I didn't mind. I didn't question good things. " Dating must have been difrent back then huh?" I asked, a smile playing across my lips.